Unhappiness In Paul's Life example essay topic
There have always been and will always be conflicts between social classes, and this story is no different. People always want more than they have and they envy the people who have it. Paul is a troubled boy from Pittsburgh who embodies this idea. His teachers think he is a delinquent, and his classmates do not interact with him, but Paul does not really seem to care. These people and their opinions matter very little to him. He feels he was born for something more than these stupid people and their opinions.
He hates his life at home on Cordelia Street and at school, with his only place of refuge being at his job at the theater. His attitude at work is completely opposite to his normal life, 'very much as though this were a great reception and Paul were the host' (Cather 314). Working as an usher at the symphony surrounds him with the beauty of the upper class that he belongs in. He feels that he belongs with these people so strongly that he steals money from his job at the 'firm of Denny and Carson. ' When given the weekly payroll to deposit, Paul steals it and takes off for New York City, a place where the rich can live beautiful lives of luxury and ease. He has dreamt of coming to New York City for so long that when he finally reaches New York, everything he sees is just as he has imagined and studied for so much of his life.
Paul uses the stolen money to live this life for a short time, about a week. During his time in paradise, he gets himself a room in the lavish Waldorf Astoria Hotel, buys himself beautiful new clothes to go out in, flowers, and nights out on the town. He is purely happy because he is now exactly where he feels he should be. He is hanging out with rich people, staying at the best hotel, eating at the best restaurants, and basically just surrounding himself with all the things that have set his imagination on fire for much of his mature life.
He refuses to go back to life he so despises which leads him to the actions he takes in the final paragraph of the story. The past plays a large part in Paul's mentality in this story. When he is in Pittsburgh in the beginning of the story, any thoughts of his home and family are filled with bitterness and anxiety. The thought of leaving the theater to retire in his 'ugly sleeping chamber' (Cather 316) is so appalling to him that he considers simply not going home and staying in the rain for the night before he faces his father's inquisitions. He even contemplates a scenario where his father nearly shoots him and later wishes that he hadn't held himself back. Paul definitely has a very vivid imagination that truly takes a hold of him at times.
At school, Paul hates his teachers and classmates, but even more, he hates the fact that he has to learn all the 'trivial' things that will have no effect on his life in the future. He feels school has no meaning for him. When he is in school, he lies and tells his classmates wild stories of his rich and famous friends, the places he has been, or the places he is going, only to make himself look like an ass and be at school the day after he says he's taking a long trip. This is one reason his classmates show him no respect. It is a constant battle for Paul at home in Pittsburgh. Nobody but himself seems to realize how refined he actually is, so he knows he needs to get the hell away from Cordelia Street, the setting that serves as 'the past' later in the story.
After about a week in New York City, Paul finds out that word has reached Pittsburgh that he is staying in a New York hotel and that his father is coming to find him. That though kind of shocks him back into reality. All this time, he was prancing around town like a kid in a candy store, not thinking about home at all. Now, the thought of seeing his father and being dragged home in ridicule to Pittsburgh has shattered his little fantasy world. He now felt that 'all of the world had become Cordelia Street' (Cather 326). With all of these emotions wreaking havoc in his head, Paul sits and contemplates ending it all with a revolver, but soon decides that is not the way to go.
He then takes the ferry to New Jersey and throws himself in front of a train. When he throws himself in front of the train, he finally sees 'the blue of the Adriatic water, the yellow of Algerian sands' (Cather 327). It seems that with all of the unhappiness in Paul's life, the only way he can actually live the life he desires is through death. Paul's struggle with his past and with social classes is ultimately the cause of his misery and death. Throughout his life at home, he hates living in a lower class than he belongs in. He feels that he is completely held back by the place he lives and the people that surround him, so he runs away.
When he finally gets away, everything is fine. However, when he realizes that sooner or later, he will have to return to Pittsburgh, he decides that his past was so unpleasant for him that he would rather just end it all by committing suicide. It is definitely true that these modernist ideals played a very significant role in the development of this short story, and in the ultimate downfall or Paul.